I was sitting here today thinking that in a few short weeks I will be 55 years old. OUCH even to type it seems like there is some mistake. That number is so high. I honestly feel about 18 years old, in my head anyway not so much the old body. I can still vividly see Mary and I walking to the store or to a boy's house. Well, things WERE simpler back then.
I remember my dad's 55th birthday. I typed that number again and still think it is a mistake. Dad had a big bbq on his birthday. It was in our backyard. We had family and friends over. I think he wore his dirty bird shirt the one that looks like a seagull flew over him and well...you know...got his shirt dirty. He loved that shirt. He wore it everywhere. I will admit it was a little funny to see people's faces when he would walk into a store somewhere with that shirt on. Embarrassing but funny that pretty much was my dad.
For my birthday, of that certain number, I will most likely do nothing. Where dad would always invite people over for dinner or take them out for his birthday I have no bbq pit & patio for fine outdoor parties, plus it is not the middle of summer. I have no money to take people out for dinner. I have no money to take myself out for dinner. Oh I am not complaining again about lack of money. That one needs no explanation. I am simply saying that while in some ways I am my father's daughter there are many ways that we are different.
I close my eyes and see my dad at 55 wearing that silly shirt,laughing. I see myself at 55 and I am not. Maybe I should fix that. Maybe I should go out and buy myself some embarrassing shirt. If I lived on a beach I could stand there and see if the seagulls have a good aim!! I bet my dad would get a kick out of that!
So lighten up old girl. Life is what you make it so you should make it something that you can laugh at and smile. Don't take things so seriously. Age is just a number and if the memory of your dad standing in the backyard laughing on his 55th birthday makes you smile then you can make it too!
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I write my age down on a piece of people and look at it through the mirror.
52 looks alot like 25.
I guess you;re kind screwed with 55 :S.
Thanks for your blog posts. Life kinda sucks right now, and I've been thinking about how much easier it would be to sleep and never have to wake up again. But I've got a 5 year old daughter to take care of so I can't give up and leave her. Thanks for the perspective.
Hey Walker do you think if I write 55 and hold it upside down in the mirror it would look like 22
Dear Anonymous, Life is like a roller coaster. Sometimes you are on top of the world and other times life sucks. It is a journey and some of it is ugly. But you need to stay on the ride. When you have a child it is even more reason for you to stay strong. This child has you to look up to. You to teach them about life. How to take the rain and make a rainbow. How to smile when you really want to cry. You cannot give up. That would not be what you want to show your child.
So dear Anonymous take a deep breath, stand up straight and face the world. You can do it. I believe in you. Hugs, Smokey's Daughter. Cindy
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